Here we go again

Hey friends.

Do you know how many times I have started writing a blog update and not published it? No - you don't. But the answer is a lot. A lot times.

The reasons I have not published are varied - but they mostly boil down to two things.

1) my life is boring and nothing ever changes

2) I've been rocking the emo-funk lately, and emo entries are sooo freshman year of college.

Here is a brief summary of the last 3 weeks of my life.

I developed a crush on one of my good guy friends/coworkers. This has affected every aspect of my life because I am a melodramatic person who allows things like silly crushes (that are not very silly really - or unimportant) to affect her whole life.

The result of my illicit crush has been my awkwardness towards said friend, as well as an increase in my awkward nature in general, and a general increase in my self-consciousness due to my increased awkwardness. And due to my overly-analytical nature I have become self-conscious about my self-consciousness. It's all quite ridiculous.

But I have decided (on the advice of friends) that the best thing for my mental health is to tell said crush the truth - and I will be doing so as soon as I get the courage to. Which might take awhile. But hopefully it will be soon and then I can go back to writing boring blog entries about things that don't make any of my parents uncomfortable and don't lead any of my best friends to make another mark on the long tally sheet of "Layton's crushes that increase her awkwardness level."

Here's hoping!