Eigentlich

I'm pretty upset with myself for not successfully maintaining my blog thus far. The good news is, I only know of one person offhand who actually reads it. Haha.

I am also upset that I have spent the better part of my day engaged in a ridiculous online argument on a stupid message board with pathetically mean-spirited people. I think people assume that because you're not talking to someone in person - the way you treat them doesn't matter. As a matter of fact it does. It does very much.

I am buying dark brown hair dye tomorrow - I am excited. Haircut on Tuesday. I am also getting 3 fillings tomorrow morning and then working for 8 hours right after - woo! My dad told me to get them to give me nitrous oxide at the dentist's office. It seems cheesy to put a "haha" after that because Nitrous Oxide is laughing gas. Too late.

I started a story a couple of days ago and I'm pretty proud that I've worked on it pretty much everyday - but it's a fanfic about Supernatural so it doesn't really count as anything approaching respectable. Oh well - it's writing, right?

Today I got this email from my Creative Writing professor with the things people said about everyone else in the class on it. I forgot to participate in this because my nephew was being born, but people still wrote about me. This is what they said:

Layton: Stylistically serene with her way of art imitating life
Layton: I know that you are the laptop girl and I think that’s awesome
Layton: fresh, spring
Layton: raw and talented, ready to take on the world, but not sure how. she'll get there.
Layton: Eigentlich
Layton: "runs downhill like a river to the sea"
Layton: If _______ was going to kill someone, he/she would.... Layton would kill someone with the utmost beauty. It would be quick and painless and there'd be no blood, no guts. And the victim would love it.


Isn't it weird how hearing what other people think of you (and/or your writing) can make you sad and happy at the same time - regardless of what they say. That one word "Eigentlich" means "actually" in German. I'm not quite sure what that's supposed to say about me - but I think it might be a good thing.

Anyway, I think I'm going to crash - I'm all teary about this stupid internet argument thing which is made even more absurd by the fact that I haven't been the least bit emotional about any of the *real* things going on in my life lately.

I feel very mediated right now. I don't really think that's the right phrase.